Phobias. BLAH!

I was scheduled for an MRI this morning.

I've been dreading it for weeks.

Last time I had one (about 12 years ago) I had to be sedated.

Because I'm a complete blithering, blubbering, idiot!

I am ABSOLUTELY frightened to DEATH of closed in spaces and simply

cannot keep my emotions in control.

HOW EMBARRASSING Huh?!?!!

But seriously! Who wouldn't be afraid of THIS!!

AAACCKKKK!!!

See, here's the deal...when I was very young I was playing hide and seek and got stuck behind my grandmother's couch. I had wiggled behind there but couldn't get out and was too small to push my way out.

So there I lay. Stuck. And Scared.

So I told my Dr. last week that if I needed an MRI then I would need something to calm me down.

And his nurse called in some Ativan.

I was suppose to take 1 pill 1 hour before my appointment.

So I took it about 1 hr 15 minutes before (just in case--because this HAS to work).

After 45 minutes I was crying inconsolably.

IT WASN'T WORKING!! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW??!!

So...I took the second pill (which I guess was given for just this type of emergency)?.?

Okay. All should be fine now.

Long story short. The pills did NOTHING!!

I just couldn't do it! I didn't feel any differently! How could that BE??

BLAH!!!

Yes. I was THAT girl.

The one sobbing in the room.

I'm such a weanie-butt!! ERRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!

So, after being dismissed from my pretend MRI (as I like to refer to it)

I've spent the rest of the day being dizzy, sleepy, and MRI-less.

Please tell me I'm not the only one who's deathly afraid of closed-in spaces.

Or am I the only weirdo with this phobia?

SIGH...

Hugs to you Today!
(But not too tight--I need to breathe) {grin}